Feeling

Emotional...finding it difficult to put into words...

A friendship...for 25 years... Babies...mothering...loving...learning of life...
The challenges...victories...joys...guilt...growth...dispair...
Discovering...talking...believing in one another...
Even when it wasn't easy...
Always...there...
Conflicted, I...so very glad...my Dear Heart Friend...
now free...from pain...the heaviness of dis-ease...
knows pure joy and LOVE!!!
So very sad...her Left Here Friend...
will hear her voice...laughter...share confidences...see her smile...

no more...
Sip good wine together...
Share epiphanies of understanding God...and wonder how...
Do we live in this world...knowing...
Truth?
What does it mean to live in the moment?...
When her place beside me feels empty...
Damn!!!!!!
And how do I embrace this pain...
Without judging it...
And find within...the beauty of a holy relationship...
Appreciating the memories...the moments...
The gift...
Of Patty...and sorrow...
I miss her........